Boat life

I used to work on a ship in the Pacific, and these were my experience and thoughts.

landvswater

I’m seasoned confused, temperature confused, time confused, city confused. I am finally at a stand still (I think) back home, and I’m exhausted. I have traveled over 15,000 miles, plus however many thousands of nautical miles in the last six months. I am having a hard time adjusting to land life and relationships this time. So much has shifted since I have left almost two years ago. I have tried to be present with the people I’m meeting up with throughout traveling, and it’s almost making me go crazy. I’m all over the place, my thoughts, my outlooks, the things I’ve seen and done, the stories I can’t seem to get to come out of my mouth. I see people and places through a different set of copper eyes now. Everyone has continued on predictably expanding with technology, jobs, family, drinking, sports, success, money, social lives etc. I feel as if I’ve expanded in a sphere encompassing almost none of those aspects. Will I have common ground with these values ever again?

beneath the surface